I Give a shit, Even if you dont

 The hardest part of being an independent music for me, is trying to make people care about what you're doing. I've been making music since I was 19, been writing songs since I was 13. I was in church choirs since I was at least 8-9 years old. I love music. I love being a part of making it, I love performing it, and I love seeing people respond to it. I think there are so many rewards from making it that sometimes the fact that most people could care less goes unnoticed. But in the times that I do notice and I do recognize that people aren't paying attention, and they dont care about my music, it's saddening sometimes.

Luckily I'm a pretty pragmatic person. I'm not as effected by it as an artist with fragile heart. This shit requires thick skin. But even more than that it requires willpower. It requires mental strength. Consider the feeling of investing hours, days, weeks, months, maybe even years into creating something. Then building up the courage to release it to "The World". Then getting out of your comfort zone and marketing and promoting your shit. All that to receive the metaphorical critics, when you do put it out. That sucks. Its also funny as hell because I know the feeling and here the sentiments of artist thinking "Yo, when this shit drops...Streets gonna be on FIRE!!" No they won't. Maybe. Its possible but...probably not! 😅 And thats ok. This shit has to be more than clout or reputation. Or even the unthinkable...real money! 

Its hard to wanna put myself out there still. At the risk of looking like a guy that "Cant let it go", I keep putting my shit out. I dont give a damn what it looks like to be honest. My goal with making music is the same as anything else I do. I want to reach people that can relate to me and my experience. And I want to relate to theirs. There's alot of music out there and I may not be for everybody. Thats cool but either way, these rhymes gone get written. These songs gon get sang and the chips will fall where they may. Even for folks who dont listen, I know I've got a song for them. I wanna make songs that make the world move. Whether thats motivation, or dance moves. Music is a part of me. For better or worse. And I hope more people find my music through this journey